I'm Blessed isn't just a saying

I have a very blessed life. When I tell people that they look at me funny and probably think something along the lines of "but your brother has had cancer twice!" But you know, he's alive and cancer free, that's more than I can say for most people and that's really sad. 

Something else that's awesome (but doesn't beat cancer survivoring obviously) is that I've had the opportunity to travel, I've been to 39 states and 4 countries (counting the U.S.A) and I'm going to London this may which is amazing to think about because I've always wanted to go there. 

The biggest thing that's happened recently is that I've gotten a job offer to be a PA for Quinn (freaking) Loftis the author of The Grey Wolf Series (so good you should go read it). That is amazing and I'm so glad I get to do this. 

Somethings in life don't go right but others do and when life doesn't go right you just have to remember the things that are and focus on those. 

God has a plan and he will use you. 

My friend died a year (almost two) ago and I was really sad and mad that she was gone because I didn't understand but if it wasn't for that happening my mom wouldn't have reached out to Quinn who was friends with my friend who died to help me go through it. If she didn't help me then I wouldn't have become her friend or babysit her kids or become her PA. 

God works in mysterious ways and we just have to trust and hold on. Because we shouldn't just be going through stuff we should be growing through the stuff we do (does that make sense?). 

-Brittney 

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas my lovies! 

I hope your Christmas is magical and everyone had a wonderful time! We just need to spend time with family and friends and remember that Jesus is the reason for the season. 

I hope your day is great and I'll try to post what I got for Christmas. 

Love you all! 

My living room decorations! ^_^ 

-Brittney 

ITS CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS 

Hope you have a great Christmas! 

My personal superhero

Life is going to suck. It is going to be hard. There will be boy drama and girl drama and family drama and life drama and health crap and your car will break down and you will break down and everything will go wrong and you just want to throw your hands up and yell "screw it all!!" But you don't. Because someone puts their hand on your shoulder and wraps you in their arms and leans your head on their shoulder and let's you cry until you have no tears left. Even if everything in their life is going wrong and even worse than yours they put it on pause to help you get through whatever you are going through. They stop the world to get you through it and it is amazing because it seems they are the only ones who can do it. They are like superheroes who job is to save people but they are even better because they are your own personal superheroes. They just care about you and no one else. I'm thankful for my personal superhero. 

 Thank you momma for always being there for me. I love you to the moon and back a thousand times.

Learning

I'm learning a lot this year. Most of the time I feel stupid because some of the stuff it is like "oh duh why did I even do that?!". Like when you write a blog post don't say certain events because even if you don't say a name you could still figure it out. And there are other sides to the story, my side isn't the same as theirs, my feelings aren't the same as theirs, but that doesn't make it any less important and I should have realized that but I didn't so I learned that. I might be mature and older than others but I'm still only 18 and I'm still learning. I wish learning wasnt so humiliating and hurtful sometimes but it is what it is. 

I don't know. I guess this post is to say I'm sorry I'm learning and if I've hurt you while learning it then I'm sorry but I'm learning and I'm learnin not to repate my mistakes. 

Xoxo Brittney 

Toxic (revised)

A toxic relationship means they are so dependent on you that they hold on so tight to the noose around your neck, not letting you jump or let you go but slowly suffocating you, just so they can make themselves someone important for a day. It is like your pain causes thirty seconds of fame and they become hungry for more fame so they hurt you more, and more, and more, and more until you have nothing left and you are just and empty husk of who you use to be. 

- Brittney