College. 18. Yikes.

So this all just kinda hit me while trying to go to sleep. 

I'm going to be 18 Thursday, I'll be a leagal adult and be in charge of adult things and have super insane responsibility.  Am I even ready for that? 

I also I'm going to college at some point. I don't know where yet but I DID GET INTO ORU WHICH IS SUPER EXCITING! I also got an academic scholarship for ORU so that's insanely amazing. 

I'm either going to ORU or if I hopefully get in to North Eastern I might got there. 

It's narrowed down to those two colleges, I'm just waiting to hear back. I don't really want to apply for anymore colleges even though mom wants me too. I got into one of my top three, if I get into North Eastern and Tulsa (my other top ones) then it's just a matter of choosing. Since I'm already in one of the three I don't see the point of applying for more. Although I kinda want to apply to Harvard just to see if I get in even though I have no desire to go what so ever ^_^ . 

I don't know guys, am i even ready for college? I have to get a tutor to get me past Physics and Advanced Computers: Python  Programing so I'm very doubtful I am ready but everyone tells me I am. I also keep hearing "you won't have your parents in college so don't rely on them at all this year" and then I started to panic because I'm super close to both of my parents so we do a lot together, can I even survive without them??? I can't even braid my own hair! What am I going to do??? 

I'll tell you what I'm going to do, try to sleep, all this worrying is not good for my mental health and the stress isn't good for my face (vain I know but senior pictures are next week and I don't want bags under my eyes and mount pimple on my face). So goodnight lovelies I will write again soon. 

-Brittney