Just 5 Seconds

You know those crazy 5 gum commercials where it says "life happens in 5"?
Well, that happened. My life has been changed. I only applied to three colleges, ORU, NSU, and Tulsa University.

I heard back from ORU admittedly (I was in with a scholarship) and saw the campus and wanted to go there as soon as I saw it. I loved it, I loved the campus, the people, the way it felt, the professors, everything. It honestly just felt right.

I hadn't heard from any one else and I thought I was fine with that, I have my school I was going to go to and it was fine. But today I just got home and I went straight to my homework (I know, I'm a nerd) and didn't look in the mail for anything because I haven't since I said I was going to ORU but my mom came into the room at 3:14 with this big green packet and it was from NSU which I had wanted to go to for so many years. I got in and I started tearing up, I still have tears in my eyes. I don't know if they are happy tears or not yet.

All I know is five seconds before 3:14 I knew where I was going now I don't. I thought ORU was for me but NSU had been my dream when I was looking at being an optometrist. But now that I'm not I don't know what I'm going to do but I thought I could figure it out at ORU.

I'm just really confused right now.

ORU?
NSU?
Apply somewhere else?

Apparently 5 seconds changes everything.


On the topic of not knowing where I'm going, I also don't know what I'm doing.  I thought about being doctor because I love science but it is not my strongest subject. I was confused for a while on what to do because I only ever thought about being a doctor but now I'm thinking of being an editor and opening my own little company at some point where I edit books and do social media promotion things for different authors but that would mean an English degree and every makes fun of those, I've been getting a pretty hard time from my family about it but I know they don't mean anything by it.
I just don't know, if I went that route then I could do editing and writing and broadcasting books and I love doing that anyways so it seems almost natural for me, it seems like a job I could do forever and always love it.